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but i can say with calm confidence we are more than just our physical bodies. reading thru this made me think of the times my meat popsicle just needed a snack…or to sleep (my ideation is always the worst when I haven’t been able to sleep)…but I’ve had far too many experiences that tell me my larger, deep, connection to the things and people on this planet is terrifyingly real.
I knew when my father died. not at the time I had the experience, but learning later about the series of events that occurred and the timeline…long story to tell and happy to tell it. too intense for right here right now tho.
I knew when something was very very wrong with my brother.
I knew when I saw an app for a tv show I wanted to be on, that as I applied I was going to get it.
Deep moments feeling, “I know.”
i wish there were terms I could use to explain that didn’t sound like new agey fluff talking about “energy”
We are often ruled by our bodies and physical impulses, but it certainly isn’t all we are.
I often wonder if other people have the same level of internal monologue as I do, but I know they don't, as my best friend doesn't have an internal monologue at all (of which I am sometimes jealous). Last year it had gotten to the point that my internal voice had added about 20 members to the band and they were all talking at the same time. I would think, "I get why this would make someone crazy. It's making me crazy". Then I got diagnosed with OCD, and magically found a medication that worked for me (a rare privilege that I don't take for granted). Anyways, it's just wild how the human brain works and I love it and hate it all at the same time. Thanks for sharing your words!
Reading these newsletters and recognizing the parallels to your own life - what chemical reminds you of shared humanity? I suppose all of them. Ty regardless 😮💨
Just my two cents as someone who also suffers from mental illness. I do think it helps to understand the science of it all. Feels as if it loses some of its power over me. Anyways, thanks for writing this, I've had a tough week and it helped.
"Is it all just chemicals? What about when they smiled at something you said and you just felt right? Is that a chemical. Is remembering what they enjoy just a set of connections in the brain?"
It's so interesting that we try to distance ourselves from our physicality in instances when we feel overwhelmed or burdened. I do it too but I can't pinpoint why that inclination exists - maybe it's societal conditioning or the persistence of Cartesian thought or some other thing, I don't know. It's just striking to me because when I'm overwhelmed with anxiety it feels like an internal failure, not an external one. Hope you're feeling better.
You didn't outright say it but this entire piece made me think of the rat race and how we are all on a that fucking wheel running for no reason but we can't stop.
This one hit home for me. I am often looking for ways to understand my experience rather than feel and be. (I hope to focus more on the feeling and being part of existence) thank you for sharing 🌸
humans are just mammals, and sometimes the world is a lot more complicated than that, but we are literally just animals. it's science. whether or not the understanding of that helps is debatable, but i like to remind myself that i'm just an animal that needs socialization and food and shelter and love. and allowing myself those things helps my animal body keep going. sometimes it helps, sometimes it doesn't. but it's a great reminder. i loved this piece, please keep writing.
Apparently it is helpful if you like and comment, just FYI. Also if you like anything I write and share it somewhere on social media, definitely tag me. :)
Lolo proving once again that mfs with legal training and mental issues make for insanely enthralling writers
Your anxiety didn’t fall out of a chemical coconut tree, Lolo.
i am a sucker for science.
but i can say with calm confidence we are more than just our physical bodies. reading thru this made me think of the times my meat popsicle just needed a snack…or to sleep (my ideation is always the worst when I haven’t been able to sleep)…but I’ve had far too many experiences that tell me my larger, deep, connection to the things and people on this planet is terrifyingly real.
I knew when my father died. not at the time I had the experience, but learning later about the series of events that occurred and the timeline…long story to tell and happy to tell it. too intense for right here right now tho.
I knew when something was very very wrong with my brother.
I knew when I saw an app for a tv show I wanted to be on, that as I applied I was going to get it.
Deep moments feeling, “I know.”
i wish there were terms I could use to explain that didn’t sound like new agey fluff talking about “energy”
We are often ruled by our bodies and physical impulses, but it certainly isn’t all we are.
I often wonder if other people have the same level of internal monologue as I do, but I know they don't, as my best friend doesn't have an internal monologue at all (of which I am sometimes jealous). Last year it had gotten to the point that my internal voice had added about 20 members to the band and they were all talking at the same time. I would think, "I get why this would make someone crazy. It's making me crazy". Then I got diagnosed with OCD, and magically found a medication that worked for me (a rare privilege that I don't take for granted). Anyways, it's just wild how the human brain works and I love it and hate it all at the same time. Thanks for sharing your words!
Reading these newsletters and recognizing the parallels to your own life - what chemical reminds you of shared humanity? I suppose all of them. Ty regardless 😮💨
Just my two cents as someone who also suffers from mental illness. I do think it helps to understand the science of it all. Feels as if it loses some of its power over me. Anyways, thanks for writing this, I've had a tough week and it helped.
"Is it all just chemicals? What about when they smiled at something you said and you just felt right? Is that a chemical. Is remembering what they enjoy just a set of connections in the brain?"
I absolutely love this.
It's so interesting that we try to distance ourselves from our physicality in instances when we feel overwhelmed or burdened. I do it too but I can't pinpoint why that inclination exists - maybe it's societal conditioning or the persistence of Cartesian thought or some other thing, I don't know. It's just striking to me because when I'm overwhelmed with anxiety it feels like an internal failure, not an external one. Hope you're feeling better.
Some real good 💩
You didn't outright say it but this entire piece made me think of the rat race and how we are all on a that fucking wheel running for no reason but we can't stop.
You should take this www.16personalities.com
It gave me some good insights
This made me want to vomit. Or scurry. Which... might be the intended impact. So. Great job.
This one hit home for me. I am often looking for ways to understand my experience rather than feel and be. (I hope to focus more on the feeling and being part of existence) thank you for sharing 🌸
Love the fact that you have the same fursona as Paul Atreides. Looking forward to you exploring that in further writings.
Thanks for taking us on such a poignant and promising train ride.💛
humans are just mammals, and sometimes the world is a lot more complicated than that, but we are literally just animals. it's science. whether or not the understanding of that helps is debatable, but i like to remind myself that i'm just an animal that needs socialization and food and shelter and love. and allowing myself those things helps my animal body keep going. sometimes it helps, sometimes it doesn't. but it's a great reminder. i loved this piece, please keep writing.